Tuesday, 14 July 2020

Crushed Crushes and more...


Meera was going through the journals while sipping her coffee, in her chic business suit with her unruly hairs tied elegantly in a knot on top of her head. She was waiting for her flight in that airport business lounge. Her mobile phone beeped, and she saw a text from her mother reminding her to bring some Barbie doll for her niece. Oh no, she had completely forgotten about it. She gulps down her coffee and rushes outside to the duty-free shops. She finds a Hamleys’ nearby and buys the doll in question and some more stuffs which she thinks her 6-year-old niece may like. While returning to the lounge, she gets a glimpse of a familiar looking person. She turns around and tries to search though the crowded alleys of the airport, but she finds nobody familiar. She thinks it may be her illusion and returns to the lounge. It was silly of her to have an illusion of a person whom she had not met or remembered in last ten or eleven years.

She is twenty-nine and unmarried, to her parents’ dismay. Her childhood neighbor and best friend, Neetu had been married five years ago and is now a mother of two kids. And her mother keeps reminding her that she is wasting her fertile years. Her two elder brothers are also married with kids. So, every other day, her parents find her a match and either the boy’s parents reject her for being open minded and independent or because of her short haircut. Sometimes she needs to decline because she is asked to leave her job, or something which she does not like. Her mother had told her many times, she needs to learn to compromise. In any case, it was her who will have to compromise after marriage also. So, she should not complain now, and she should not be proud of her high paying corporate job. However, her father and her brothers had been supporting her all these years. Her own sisters-in-law are earning handsomely and managing their homes efficiently and the irony is that her mother is equally proud of her daughters-in-law. This time also she is rushing to her hometown because her mother’s pundit ji has found some alliance and the prospective guys’ family wants to meet her this weekend.

Her flight is announced, and she boards her plane. After keeping her belongings in the overhead bunkers, she falls back on her seat and ties the seat belt around her waist. She sees the familiar face pass by her again. And, it was obvious, he had not recognized her. She remembers his name, Rahul. However, she did not hear any violins playing in the background. (Yes, every pun intended)
Meera, the plain jane girl of school, scholarly girl with round specs, was in class seven. This new boy, Rahul, had joined their school that year. He was every girl’s dream. He resembled Jas Arora, of “Gud Naal Ishq Meetha” fame. So, she had believed then. Meera would be blushing crimson red to her ears whenever Neetu would tease her with his name. Meera jolts back to present when the pilot speaks from the cockpit and the cabin crew starts explaining the safety features of the flight. She smiles to herself and opens the novel, “The Twentieth Wife”. She can catch up on the half-read book during the flying time.

The flight reaches its destination after 2 hours of flying. The passengers get off the plane and hurriedly move towards the baggage carousel to pick their checked-in luggage. Meera bumps into Rahul near the exit gate again while waiting for her cab. He smiles at her and she smiles back. He looks at her with an appreciative look which she understands very well. She knows that she looks good. At the same time, she also understands, he had not recognized her. She goes her way to catch her cab which will take her home.

Whenever she recalls her school days, a smile comes to her lips. They were so naive, gullible, and full of life at the same time. That year when this new boy had joined their school, Meera’s life had turned upside down. She remembers herself bowled over by this boy’s charms. He was in a different class than hers. She would find excuses to sneak near his class to have a look at him. After coming back from school, both her and Neetu would be talking about the new boy in their school, giggling together. It was Neetu who had recognized her crush on him for the first time. But being her best friend, Neetu was never going to give away this secret to anybody.

He was in the basketball team of their school and all the girls would go gaga over him. He was aware of all the attention from the other gender and was gleeful about it. She had heard he was equally good in studies. Also, there had been many rumors that he used to date many good-looking girls of their school that time. She used to hope that he would look her way some day and he would find her attractive enough to make her his girlfriend. Once they had enacted in a musical play in school. Kamadeva (Rahul) and Rati (Archana) were dancing and playing wild in their romance. They hear anklets, when they see Parvati (Renu) approaching Shiva (Meera), who was sitting in a corner in deep meditation. Parvati offered flowers to Shiva’s feet and went away but Shiva did not open his eyes. Kamadeva wanted Shiva to open his eyes and look at Parvati, so he shoots an arrow from his bow towards Shiva. Shiva opens his third eye and starts dancing Tandava, Kamadeva catches fire and the dance drama ends with Rati’s sobs. While practicing for the musical, Meera had hoped that Rahul would start noticing her.

The play was enacted on their school Annual day. After the play everyone was enjoying samosas in the school canteen. She heard someone calling her, “Ey Ladki, suno”. Nobody called her, “Ey Ladki”. Everybody knew her name in school. She turned to see who had the audacity to call her by that name and found her puppy love looking at her with frowning brows. She found her courage and told him that her name was Meera. At that he replied that he knew her name and then spoke, “You, spectacled girl, no need to show off your tantrums on me. Go, give this letter to Archana, and tell her that I have sent this”. She had replied, “I am not a messenger”, for which he had replied, “Then what else can you do apart from being a book worm”. Before she could even speak, he had turned on his heels and rushed off to some other corner of the school.

She had felt humiliated and had wept that whole evening after coming back from school. She had thought, she was not a book worm at all. She was good in studies, but she was equally a good singer and dancer of her school. She had won many laurels and brought many prestigious awards for her school in singing and dancing. Neetu had consoled her that evening saying he does not deserve her. She was her best friend and could not see her friend in distress. That encounter had ended her puppy love for him. She had topped her school in tenth and twelfth standards and had left her hometown for her engineering from a prestigious college. Later she had done MBA from an equally prestigious University and had never gotten any chance to remember him. Neetu had also never talked about him after that incident. For both these friends, he was a forgotten chapter.  After around eleven years or so, she had seen him today.

The whole house was abuzz with preparations. Sweets have come from the famous sweet shop of their town. Her eldest brother and sister-in-law with their 6-year-old daughter, Sonia, have also come for this weekend. Her second brother and sister-in-law are expecting their second child so they could not come. Meera was not at all happy with this chaos but did not speak anything to her mother. This was for the first time; some alliance had come from their same town. And whole family was hoping for a fruitful encounter. She heard that the guy is a dentist. She was warned by her mother not to speak anything rude in front of the guests. Her sister-in-law winked at her while helping her drape a heavy Sari from Banaras. Her Bhabhi also helped her apply a light makeup accentuating her cheeks and bright big eyes. She looks at her reflection in the mirror and is satisfied.

A car pulls up in front of the porch of their ancestral house. Her brother and father go to greet the guests at the gate. Her Bhabhi and mother also go to greet them at the door, and she can hear people talking and some laughter in their living room. Her Bhabhi comes to her and gives her a tray loaded with teacups and says, “time for the parade, come” and smiles at Meera. Meera is ready for the ordeal but she does not hear any trumpet announcing her entrance.

She enters the living room with the tray and peers at the audience. Then she sees him again. He was wearing a charcoal colored suit and when he looks at her, he smiles and gives her another appreciative glance. She smiles back but her smile and her eyes narrow down. Both her mother and sister-in-law warns her to behave from distance, she can feel their eyes on her. She is asked to sit in a sofa between her father and Rahul’s mother. She sits and smiles at every one around her. The guy’s mother asks her, “Beta, do you know cooking?”, “We have only one son, we want him to be looked after well after marriage”, “He had been away from home for studies and work for so long now, that we get worried about his eating and all. So, we want someone to look after him and hope he gets good home cooked food after marriage”. And so on. Meera kept her smile intact and made affirmative sounds. Her mother starts speaking, “Meera knows everything about taking good care of a house. She cooks well. You don’t have to worry about anything. She is earning well in her job, but she will definitely take care of the house after marriage.” Meera listened to all the hoopla around her and did not comment on anything. “Let the guy and the girl talk in private. They are grown ups and let them find more about each other”. So, she was rushed into verandah where sitting arrangements were already made for two people. Tea and sweets were brought in here for the two people.

Rahul and Meera sat across each other and were asked to find more about each other. “I had seen you at the airport yesterday. I did not know that I have to come and see you today”. She says, “Yes” and smiles. “I heard that you had gone to the same school where I had studied. I don’t remember seeing you. I would have remembered a beautiful face like yours”, and he winks at her. Meera says with her mischievous smile on her lips, “Well, I remember doing a play with you once in school. I was the Shiva who had scorched the Kamadeva. I guess you were the Kamadeva”. Recognition dawns at him and he exclaims, “Oh my God, you have turned into a beautiful lady”.

The visitors leave their place and the whole family is eating dinner now. Her mother signals her father to speak to Meera. She notices that from the corner of her eyes. She had been dreading this conversation. She looks at her Bhabhi for any signs, but she is busy feeding a fussy eater Sonia. Her father speaks, “Beta, did you like the guy who visited us today”? She turns to look at her father’s face, she hears a different question this time. Earlier he used to ask, “The guy was good, today. What do you think”? She narrows down her eyes at her father, her father continues, “The choice will be yours anyways. But the guy has completed his Bachelor of Dental Surgery and waiting for his post-graduation. He is still not earning properly”. She thinks, “Aahhh, Bullseye”. She looks at her brother, her bother speaks, “I also think, this guy is not good for you. But still the choice will be entirely yours”.  She rolls her eyes and thinks to herself, “Yes, right big brother”. Her mother says, “We saw you were having a good time talking to him. If you still want to go ahead, we have no problem”. “Mummy, of course not. He had gone to the same school where I had studied so we were remembering some old friends. I am sure whatever you decide would be good for me. I am happy with your decision”. Everyone heaves a relieved sigh at the table and they continue eating in a happy relieved mood. This time her sister-in-law narrows down her eyes at her and Meera smiles and winks at her Bhabhi.