Tuesday, 16 November 2021

फिर कभी...

 

एक कहानी थोड़ी पुरानी सी थी,

कुछ नये पन्ने जोड़ने चली,

कलम उठाई तो जाना स्याही खतम है,

सो दवात खोजने निकल पड़ी ।


फिर देखा फूल पत्तियां सारी हैं बिखरी हुई,

कल रात जोरों की बारिश जो हुई,

कपड़े भी थे आधे गीले कुछ आधे सूखे,

सो थोड़ी जो धूप दिखी मैं दौड़ चली ।


रोटी सीकीं तो कभी सब्जियों में करछी चली,

दूध भी उबल कर थोड़ी गिर गई,

फिर मैं भागी छोटे बड़े सबके पीछे,

और डिब्बे भरते भरते स्कूल की बस आ गई ।


फिर दौड़ी मैं सँभालने रोज़गारी अपनी,

और जुट गई काम काज की उलझनों में,

शाम को देखा प्याली अभी भी है भरी हुई,

पर चाय उसमें थी ठंडी पड़ी ।


वाद विवाद में उलझती कभी सुलझती रही,

देर सवेर जब मैं वापस घर पहुंची,

तो कुछ नन्हे सपनों में रंग भरे,

उसके शब्दों को आकार दिया उनमें थोड़ी हुंकार भरी ।


कुछ नई फरमाइशें भी थी,

तो कुकर की सीटी फिर से बजी,

फिर एक ओर बिखरे कपड़े समेते,
 
तो उस ओर नींद की लोरी गा कर सुनाई ।


अब तक थक गई थी काया मेरी,

पलकों में भी नींद भरी थी, 

पर देखा कई पन्ने इधर उधर हो गए थे,

उन्हें समेत लूं, नयें जोड़ूंगी फिर कभी ।।



Friday, 17 September 2021

सब जिम्मेदारी के नाम पे....


जिम्मेदारी के नाम पे,
मेरा खून बहा दिया,
मेरा ही कलेजा काट के,
अपने हिस्से को बचा लिया।

मेरी छवि को मैली कर,
अपना दामन साफ किया,
तुम्हारे अंदरूनी जंग ने
मेरी आँचल को जला दिया।

हर ऊँचाई तक पहुंचने के लिए,
मुझे सीढ़ी तो बना लिया,
पर अपनी मिथ्या दंभ के लिए,
मेरे परों को काट दिया।

हर एक बार मुझे अपमानित कर,
अपना मान कैसे बढ़ाए तू?
मेरी आत्मा को छलनि कर,
बारंबार मेरी चिता जलाए तू।

समय के साथ कुछ नही बदला,
कितने दिन, साल, युग बीत गए,
अपनी नजरों को बचाने हेतु,
मेरी पलकों को ही काट दिया।

आँखों को मैंने पत्थर बना लिए,
चीखों को तो कबका दबा दिया, 
मेरी सिसकियाँ भी जब सुनाईं न दें,
सब जिम्मेदारी के नाम पे।।

Monday, 9 August 2021

A Morning Stroll

A Morning Stroll

My flared nostrils opened up,
With a morning stroll near the lake,
All tranquil, calm and serene,
Soothing my nerves that was no fake.

Chirping birds and quacking ducks,
Going about their song of life,
And here, I am quibbling,
With all my fears running rife.

A lumpy throat, an anxious hump,
All my wrinkles and my crease,
Something that shifted all my thoughts,
That was wafting through the breeze.

All the blooming saplings around,
Clearing the way that I run,
And I am spreading my wings again,
With the smiling and rising sun.

Tuesday, 20 July 2021

Babul Ki Betiyaan

बुन लिए कुछ नज़म…

 

बुन लिए कुछ नज़म

 

घड़ी की सुई जब देखो चली ही जाती है,
छंद घंटो के जाल में फिसलती ही जाती है,
हर तरफ कश्मकश और भागमभागी जो है,
उसी बीच एक खोई हुई प्यास भी है I

शोरोगुल में कहीं गुम हो गई,
मैं भी मशगुल कहीं खो गई,
शबदों को पिरोने की वो कशीश,
धुंधली सी एक तशवीर बन गई I

पुरानी गलियों से एक आवाज आई,
दूर से ही सही पर एक आस आई,
फिर उठाई मैंने एक जंग लगी हुई कलम,
और बुन लिए फिर कुछ नज़म II

Wednesday, 12 May 2021

Waiting for Amma...

Bittu and Mitthoo are not happy today, they are waiting in the veranda of their old low roof house for their beloved Amma. They can hear the sirens of the ambulances moving around in the street and breaking the eerie silence of the street. The streets were always so buzzing with the hawkers, cars and children playing in the lanes. But from some days it is not the case and the streets are bare of visitors and vehicles. Bittu cannot understand the reason.

A few days back Amma had fallen sick. Bittu could understand as Amma had stopped doing her household chores, she was tired and had been lying all the time. He had heard her calling Vimla tai, her old friend, three days back. She was complaining that she was not able to breathe. That evening Vimla tai had come with her son and they had called an ambulance to take their Amma away somewhere. Both are clueless when would their Amma come back. Since last two days, Vimla tai’s son is coming on his bike. He places some biscuits, bread, cereals and water for them and goes away. He does not tell them about Amma. Mitthoo likes eating cereals but Bittu eats the bread. Mitthoo is not at all talking, her eyes are so sad. With each approaching sound of an ambulance, they hope their Amma to be returning.

Bittu remembers peeking through Amma’s family album on lazy afternoons when Amma would be sitting in her armchair and he would be near her. Her eyes would become moist whenever she would come across the photos of her nephew, Mohan. She would stroke his pictures with so much love, Bittu used to feel so jealous. Mohan was a martyr, who had laid down his life for our country during the Kargil war.

At those times, Mitthoo would yell through his lungs, “I want water, want water”. Poor Amma would get up from her chair to fetch her some water. Amma would understand her trick and would comment, “I know both of you do not want me weeping. But what can I do? It’s all his memories, he was such a charming kid. I am truly proud of him.” “And, am sure, my Riya will also become like her father. I am proud of both my Anita and Riya. What is the time now? Can I call them now?”

Mitthoo would have quipped again, “Anita is in US, she is married now. Gautam is a good guy, a good guy. He will take care of Riya and Anita”. “Yes, yes, I know, Mitthoo. Don’t repeat my words. What could I have done? Anita was too young with a three months old Riya, when Mohan left us. I could not have let her live a widow for rest of her life. Fortunately, I found Gautam that time. He was a God send. He married Anita and took them both to California for a good life. I wish them all the luck and happiness”, Amma would say that swallowing the gulp in her throat. “But I feel alone sometimes”.  Bittu used to feel sad hearing Amma like that. Then she would look at his forlorn face and would cheer him up by saying, “I know both of you are my companions. At this age, I am grateful to God that I have the two of you”. Miithoo would say, “Don’t make me emotional now”, and Amma would burst out laughing.

Some days, Vimla tai, would come to visit Amma. She used to bring her yummy homemade cookies. Bittu used to finish half of those. Vimla tai would complain, “Susheela, you are spoiling him a lot”. Amma would say, “Bitttu, don’t eat more cookies. Otherwise, Vimla tai will not bring them next time”. Vimla tai would bring some sarees, bangles, and some other stuff along with her and both the ladies would be discussing about those. Bittu could never understand what is this thing about clothes and jewelry that ladies can go on talking without getting bored. Sometimes Amma would keep some stuff from Vimla tai. After Vimla tai would leave, Amma would parade in those clothes and jewelry in front of them and would ask about how she looked. For both, Amma was always beautiful. Sometimes she used to go out with Vimla tai and when she would come back, she would bring so much stuff. She would bring delicious things to eat also. Bittu loved to see Amma smiling.

Last month Vimla tai had come with a beautiful card, its pages were so beautiful. Bittu had loved playing with that card. He had caught Vimla tai arguing with Amma. “Why can’t you come to the wedding? It is my sister’s son who is getting married. You know all the people there”. Amma had said, “Yes, I know all your family. But look at my age, I should be avoiding large gatherings. You also said there will be a lot of people. You should also avoid going”. “What are you saying? I can’t avoid my nephew’s wedding. Also, there is nothing to worry about. They will arrange for every precaution. We will also wear masks and go there. You must come with me, and I don’t want to hear any more excuses. Old age, huh? You might have become old; I am not old. My Kamal is not yet married”.

Ten days back in the morning, Amma had received a video call which had made Amma very happy. She was smiling all day. It was a call from Gautam and Aparna. Amma had called Bittu near her and had shown him Riya’s beautiful face. “You have grown so big, my sweetheart”. Riya had shown her drawings to Amma. Aparna had said, “Buwa, please don’t go to any wedding. I read your WhatsApp message and was so worried. Days are not good all around. Please be careful”. “I know beta. But you know how it is with Vimla. She will be very upset if I don’t go”. Same evening, Amma had gone to attend the wedding with Vimla tai. Amma had worn the blue silk saree, which Mohan had gifted her from his first salary. Amma would always mention that it was her favorite garment.

The sound of a cricket woke him up. Bittu finds that it has become dark now. He had dozed off for quite some time now. The streetlights do not turn on nowadays. Earlier those used to light up their lane. He can hear another ambulance approaching their street with its buzzing siren and flashing lights. Then he sees that it is turning towards their lane. Suddenly Mitthoo speaks, “Amma coming. Is Amma coming?” Bittu starts wagging his tail and starts barking happily. He runs to the gate in anticipation of this Ambulance may bring back their Amma. Both the parrot and the dog are patiently waiting and hoping against hope to meet and greet their owner again.